I remind myself daily that even though this child is coming to our family in a different way than our first two, she is real. I can't hear her heart beating or feel her feet kicking me but she is a part of me already. Dean and I went to Target tonight and looked at the baby stuff just for fun. We also went to Barnes and Noble and bought a book about Vietnam. I looked through it and saw the beautiful children with their big eyes and huge smiles and tried to imagine how our child will look. It is very exciting! We are pregnant with hope and anticipation!